Review of the year (particularly the last bit)

Well what to say? I've apologised so many times about not keeping this blog up to date that it is pointless to do it again. I do feel guilty about it, but when you are busy at work and so on finding the time and the motivation isn't easy.

When I started it, it was in response to the Master I was seeing having one himself and his encouraging me to do similar as a way of expressing myself and of his being able to see how I was feeling about what we were doing.

You know if you've read through those early times how I was enjoyed the learning experience, but adjusting to the idea of serving, particularly in adjusting my behaviour, or altering my look in ways which I hadn't considered before, was taking time. But I think I was getting there when that Master's work went manic and I never got to spend the time I needed with him.

So eventually I started looking for other people. I found the Master in East London who wanted so much and also wanted it yesterday, this including wanting me to have larger tits which he wanted to stretch, lower hanging balls which again he was going to stretch, and a tattoo (where only someone fucking me would see it proclaiming I was his) so after much heart searching I broke that off

But then I was still yearning for him and the hard hurting sex we had. And I think he was good for me in other ways, though his domination was such that I think I was under his spell! Even thinking about him as I write this my cock stirs.Anyway I got back in contact and in August this year went to see him. Again we had great sex as you can see from this pic.

But again his commitment wasn't there - meeting me in his workspace, or he was happy to come to mine, but any suggestion I should go to his home was not picked up. I should have said that he lived a long way away so that would have been a commitment for me, but I was willing, but he didn't share that interest. Then his work got busy, and he had problems with transportation and other issues so we were not meeting. I used to say hello on Recon when I saw him come on line - but the responses were limited - hello, how are you? still got problems, yes, sort of things.

He seldom started the conversation (well he did call me once on the phone, but only once) I started getting to the point where it seemed like I was making all the running and he was just being polite - in spite of his saying I was one of the best things ever, his actions didn't seem to be saying the same.

So I left him to contact me and really months have gone by and he hasn't - which still leaves me sad.

By the way - he didn't want me to write about us and what we were doing - hence (partly) the reason why posting have dropped off.

Another reason why they did / have, is because not much has been happening to be honest. I had an interesting holiday in Scotland with a number of people who were kink orientated though with a number of other who were not so it was a straightforward holiday with no sex but great fun anyway and quite openly gay most of the time at least.

But since I got back in August my sex life has been non-existent apart from the odd cuddle really - certainly nothing to write up on here.

I have become a regular at Collared and also recently at SM Gays but to date I haven't done anything more kinky than wear a collar and be on a lead at the former.

I've chatted to several people on Gaydar and Recon, as well as at SM Gays but I've not met anyone for various reasons, mostly around my rule that I won't accommodate people I've never met (there are several reasons, perhaps some silly and maybe it should be the subject for a post itself) and neither will they. Or they are a long way away, or they are already in relationships - some with females wanting to do stuff behind their partners backs - far too complicated to get involved with. Sometimes a combination of more than one of these. Though mostly it's been about age v experience, or cowardice or incompatibility with what people say they want But for whatever reason that's where I am, or not as the case may be.

Recently I've been chatting at length with a guy from up North who has said many nice things about me and has written some interesting stuff...

"I'd love to degrade and totally humiliate you, if I could find a place, and I think I know of one, I'd attach you to a st Andrews cross, attach electrodes to your stretched and clamped balls, and one to your cock, I'd put a catheter into you so I could control your piss, the hose would be aimed at your mouth and you'd be wearing a spider gag to hold your mouth open.

I'd make you drink a couple of litres of water before hand.

I'd hang weights, possibly vibrating from your nipples and put pegs on your body.

When I thought your bladder couldn't take any more, I'd open the tap on the catheter and spray your piss down your throat and all over your pathetic body.

All this time, electricity has been passing through your aching balls and down your cock, you're rock hard, but you know that if you cum, I'll tighten the screws on the clamp on your balls and whip your cock.

All this time other guys have been watching you, slapping you, gobbling on you, pissing on you.

After I've finished doing that, I take all my apparatus off you, and use a riding crop on your now very tender body.

I then tie you over a table so your cunt is available, I write on your arse in permanent maker "slave, fuck me, abuse me" then sit back and watch you get raped over and over.

I wouldn't be satisfied until you were sobbing"

...and while some of that is a bit heavy, well some of it would be fun! And nothing is a definite no-no.

Well he is talking about coming to London in the New Year and I expect I'll see him then. If I can wait that long as he sounds so sexy and into so many things I am that I'm seriously thinking I ought to go up and visit him. If he was closer I'd have been there already (if I was welcome) the problem being a cheap ticket you have to book so far in advance it isn't suitable for spur of the moment dashing off to see someone in a city where you've never been to meet a guy you only know from online - but that may change over the next few days if encouraged by him to ....

I've also been asked (ordered?) by another guy I first started chatting to online several years ago to meet him at SM Gays in January to serve him.

He said in out conversation ...

"I think I owe you a beating!" to which I replied "... i'd love to take you up on that Sir"

and that was followed by

"Ok...talk to me after christmas. I want to take you to the hoist and do a hard session there with you .... I can see you moaning like a bitch at the next sm gays as my belt lands on your arse...you completely naked and being made to look your audience in the face...cock flapping about as I hit you!" ....

"Yes...you will have nice bruises to show to your friends after...well at least a nice red arse and back" ....

"Your mates will see you munching on my cock too wont they? Kneeling down lika a good boy, your face buried in my crotch trying to smell my cok thru my jeans and then my briefs....feeling your buttocks nice and warm..." ....

"Do you think they will feel sorry for you? It will be a tough and humiliating session wont it? " ....

Well the answer is obviously yes and painful, and I'm out of practice and never done anything like it in public - so I'm very doubtful at the moment

I want to, but i'm scared to...

Ah well we'll see how I feel on the night!

Finally I was contacted the other evening by some top guy on Recon who said he liked this blog and I ought to write more, well Sir here it is and I hope you like it.

If you want to see more - perhaps you'll think about helping me with a few ideas???

Again apologies for my lack of posts in recent months - I hope now you'll all understand why and forgive me I will not say I'm making a new years resolution to improve nor promise to a particular frequency, but I do promise that until I say otherwise the blog is not dead - when / if it is then I'll post so (even if I took the rest down under some new master's instruction. )

Hope to write loads in the new year as that means i'll be having fun - take care and have fun folks

A quick summary to keep the blog alive

Blimey It's a long time since I wrote anything on this blog.

Just so you know I haven't been having so much sex that I couldn't find the time. I have been busy though, London Pride, social events, even had one or two meets with a little sex involved. (As well as a slaveboy's walk on a very hot day!) But not a lot of sex and not much that would be very interesting to post on here.

I did go to Collared in May (I've missed both events since) which was right at the beginning of this dry period and in fact I was planning to write that up since It was a fun evening and I saw a lot of fun demos - but it would have been nothing but a list of those so I can still do that.

I also went to SM Gays a couple of times but more on the second of those later ;-)

So cast your mind back to collared in May, well when I went downstairs it was to find the Master in Chief preparing some "sauces" for a foot worship demo.

But before all that started there were some other demonstrations of pegs, ropework, and bastinardo!

I was dragged into a dark arch area and my pants pulled down for a quick (though thoroughly welcomed) hand spanking which was good fun as it was delivered by a cute guy I've been flirting with - unfortunately very spoken for!

The pups were out in force and are always fun to watch - but then the foot-session started....

First one of the regular's feet were strapped to the leg spread "chair" they have so that his soles were well exposed, then they were strapped quite thoroughly which TBH is more fun to watch I think than be on the end of (as I have a few times.)

Then the guy who had been doing the strapping got on the floor while a couple of other regulars sat on the chair with their feet out and they had them worshipped. This culminated in the sauces being applied for the foot man to guess what they were.

Baked beans and such were the sauces - but Tabasco sauce was too much and that one ended the demo with a lot of laughter and a spluttering foot sub

Anyway another great evening .... as was SM Gays when a mate of mind ended up being chosen by one of the resident, I think, Tops, who laid on the flogger while also encouraging the mate's partner to learn how to wield the flogger!

Well one of the two had fun! The rest of us just enjoyed the spectacle!

I don't think that my mate the floggee, had taken as much before, the Master certainly doesn't hold back too much, and the noise of that flogger hitting does echo well, he also made him call out the numbers and thank yous. Made me quite jealous.

Only problem with that night is that it's a Thursday and so a school night - though TBH as I have to rely on trains I'm not one for staying too late.

Maybe I should take the car then I could stay late at the weekends at least- not like I'm bothered about the alcohol intake.

Something to think about ...

Finally I will just add that I have met three new people in this period, none through Recon Slaveboys or even Gaydar, who all have a kink interest. None however have I got past first base with. (One I have been to bed with once but it was pure vanilla. Another I did once before, but it didn't take off then.

Anyway hopefully one of them will go somewhere and I'll have some more to write about - lets hops eh?

... and again in a few days!

Well It must have been the busiest few days for late nights I've had in years.

Normally as I get up for work every day at 6 I'm home and sorting out things for turning in by 11, and there are few days I'm not even in bed by midnight on a weekday.

Last week however I was out meeting the guy previously mentioned and chatting so that I didn't walk indoors till midnight and the next day was out in pub with friends so didn't get in till 11 gone.

Thursday was the previously mentioned SMGays and Friday I visited some friends for dinner which meant I wasn't home till 12:30am Still I didn't have to get up on Good Friday or the Saturday at 6 so that was fine.

Saturday I got up at a reasonable time in order to do the usual before heading out for the day. First to coffee and drinks before some dinner and then onto Collared! (http://www.collaredevents.com)

Arriving in Central Station I met up with some of the usual suspects that I spend time with and had a couple of drinks before heading down to the cellar bar.

Chatting with mates in a bar is always fun but tonight we had a lot of demos to watch as there seemed to be a lot going on as well as avoiding stepping to the tails of the increasing number of pups or their bowls - which a couple of the guys did at one point.

One guy was tied to the cross and had a lot of weigh hung from both his balls and his nipples, then there was a whole load of wax poured over a couple of subs while they laid on a massage table. One of them had a very hairy chest so I don't envy his job picking the wax off.

The other guy who took loads of wax had previously had a bloody good hiding both on the butt with some serious red marks and what was obviously a bruise showing even before it stopped, and with a flogger on his back.

After the wax demo had ended and the sub stood up there was a lot of sweat left on the table from his back - well it was warm as well I guess but I think it was mostly the heat crated by the flogging.

During the evening I bumped into the guy I was standing next to on the Thursday at SMGays and he told me that after I'd left he went and did it, and ended up with a sore back!

Well as they say if you don't do something you'll end up regretting it and I've often known what they mean - just another time to add to the list - well there is always another time I s'pose...